limitations – Real Social Skills

When you’re fighting evil, it’s important to be aware of your limitations. You can only fight evil as the person you really are. Trying to ignore your limitations will not make you a better activist — it just crushes you.

Fighting evil is a lot of hard work. It’s not just about being a good person, or caring, or having the right values. Mostly, it’s work. And no one has infinite capacity to do that kind of work.

In fact, no one has infinite capacity to do *any* kind of work. As human beings, we’re limited. We have bodies, and needs, and we can’t do everything. Trying to work flat out all the time doesn’t end well, no matter how important the work is.

One of the things we need is love. Part of that is being aware that not everything is evil. Some things are good. Some things are amazing. Some things are important in other ways. And, no matter what, people matter, and our world is worth fighting for.

Fighting evil is incredibility emotionally draining. In order to fight evil, it’s generally necessary to come into close contact with it. And to face the fact that not everyone is on your side, and not everyone means well. Many people act with active malice or callous indifference. It can be very hard to keep going when you lose an important battle and feel the weight of the consequences. It can be very hard to avoid slipping into despair. Love is one of the most powerful defenses against despair.

It is not only ok but *necessary* to find things that you can value and enjoy. Valuing your own life and the things you enjoy is an important act of resistance. Keep in mind that one of the lives you’re fighting for is your own. You are worth fighting for.

You may have to do hard, draining things that no one should ever have to do. You may have to make sacrifices. You may need to learn how to do things you never thought you’d need to do. But you don’t have to do more than you’re capable of doing — and trying to ignore all of your feelings and limitations will not help.

Understanding your limitations actually makes you more effective (at activism and at anything else you might want to do.) Working with your brain and body works better than trying to become a superhero through sheer force of will. You can only fight evil as the person you actually are.

Most people have some ability to improve some of their physical or cognitive skills. The limits on this are different for different people. Sometimes trying hard over a long period of time makes things possible. Sometimes it doesn’t.

Sometimes all it takes to be able to do something is to be willing. For instance:

People who have unusual speech (eg, a CP accent) are often ignored.
Most people who aren’t listening, could decide to listen.
Often, willingness to slow down and listen is all it takes.
(Not everyone can do this — there’s no shame in being unable. Sometimes disability is like that. The problem is that a lot of people who *could* understand relatively easily, or could learn how, don’t bother to listen)

Sometimes gaining the ability to do something takes significant effort over a sustained period of time:

For instance, most people could not decide to wake up tomorrow and run a marathon.
No matter how willing or determined they were, they would fail, because it’s not an ability you can gain overnight.
Many people can get the ability to run a marathon, by training over time.
Most people who can run at all can get better at running, up to a point, whether or not they ever gain the ability to run a marathon.
Getting better at running takes a lot of disciplined effort over time.
People don’t just decide to run fast, they practice and keep pushing themselves until they get better at it.

Another aspect of running ability:

There is a limit, and the limit is different for everyone. Discipline and effort only take you so far.
Very few people will ever be able to run as well as olympic runners — no matter how much work they put into trying.
Bodies have absolutel limitations, and they can’t be overcome by sheer force of will.

On the other side of things, flying:

No one can flap their arms and fly, because it is physically impossible
No amount of determination or disciplined effort will make it possible for a human being to fly by flapping their arms.

It’s not always obvious which category something falls into, even for nondisabled people:

Sometimes limits are predictable.
Sometimes you can’t tell until you try.
Sometimes things that feel impossible turn out to actually be easy once you try.
And vice versa: sometimes things that feel intuitively like they should be easy turn out to be impossible.
Sometimes things that feel impossible at first become possible with sustained effort over time.
Sometimes they stay impossible.
Sometimes the effort they take turns out not to be worth it.
Ability is complicated and can be unpredictable, for everyone.

It’s often even more confusing for disabled people, for a number of reasons:

For many disabled people, walking is like flying — flat out physically impossible, not happening.
For some people, it’s like running a marathon — possible, but may or may not be worth the amount of time and effort it requires.
For some people, it’s similar to a failed attempt to become an olympic athlete — some progress towards the goal is possible; but it’s still not achievable.
It’s not always at all obvious which category something is in.
And that’s true of a lot of skills, in a lot of disability categories. (Including cognitive skills.)

In addition, honest discussion of what you can and can’t do is often taboo for disabled people. We’re often expected to say that we’re just like everyone else, even when we’re obviously not. We’re often expected to believe that we can do anything if we try hard enough, even when it’s obviously not true. We’re often prevented from trying anything hard that we might fail at — in a misguided attempt to spare us frustration and the pain of noticing our limitations. All of this can make self-assessment even harder.

Ability is complicated. Most people can improve some of their physical, emotional, or cognitive skills. Willingness makes some things possible. Sustained effort over time makes other things possible. Some things stay impossible no matter how hard you try. Sometimes it is clear which category something falls into; often it is not.

This is even more complicated for people with disabilities. Research and rules of thumb developed by experience with nondisabled people can give misleading results. No one can do everything, and that’s ok. Most people make mistakes about what they can and can’t do, and that’s ok too.