Content warning: this post probably uses language that gets used against abuse victims. I’m trying to avoid that, but I don’t think I’ve entirely succeeded, and some of these words might be triggering. Proceed with caution.
So, here’s the thing.
People are complicated, and relationships are even more complicated. Abuse victims are often pressured to pretend that things are simple. They’re pressured to believe that if there was any positive aspect whatsoever to an abusive relationship, then it wasn’t really as abusive as they think it was.
But it doesn’t work that way. People aren’t averaged. People can do some really good things, and some abusive things. They don’t cancel each other out. They coexist. Whatever else happened, the abuse was real, and you’re right not to tolerate it.
Sometimes… sometimes your abuser is also the person who taught you your favorite recipe.
Or something fundamental about how you understand the world.
Or a major skill you now use professionally.
Or maybe they gave you a lot of valuable criticism that made your art better.
Or maybe they supported you materially when you were in real trouble.
Or any number of other things.
…none of that makes the abuse ok. None of that is mitigating in any way. It doesn’t cancel anything out. Sometimes people talk like the abusive interactions and the good ones get put in a blender or something, and like some sort of theoretical blended average is what really counts. That’s not how it works. It’s the actual interactions that count, not some theoretical average. The abuse is real, and significant, no matter what else happened.
It doesn’t have to be one or the other. If some things about an abusive relationship were positive, it’s ok to acknowledge and value them.
And you can still refuse to ever have anything to do with your abuser ever again. You can still be angry. You can still hate them. You can still decide never to forgive them. You can still warn people against them. None of these things are mutually exclusive.
And, most importantly, valuing some aspects of the relationship or having some positive memories does not in *any way* mean the abuse was your fault.
This is so, so important and I can’t believe it has less than 1,000 notes. This needs to be shared.
Bolded emphasis mine.
I wrote this months ago, and I’ve gained around 3,000 followers since then. It occurs to me that some of y'all might not have seen this post and might want to see it.